I feel like I don’t like what I do. Every week is fragmented. I start with a BS Monday where I do nothing to pretend the value we add is worth it. Then I go into Tuesday with the proper company and get things done. Then I find my self at Friday again.. back to the BS..
How do I escape the BS?
Can you?
Things are going good. I am starting to get the hang of things I think?
But that’s the thing really… Right as you get the hang of it, the pendulum swings.
These brief moments of stillness that used to bring easy times, now only bring fear of turbulence ahead.
Has it always been this way?
I don’t fear work… but I also don’t desire to work. If that makes no sense then I agree. I work hard in a system built to exploit and destroy me. Seems like there is no way out. I hope the power that be (boss) is able to fix the issues, but I know in my heart, all comes back down.
I hope for a time I can save for a house; that is far out, but… a dream is a dream ;-;
I wake up.
I feel tired.
Not bad i guess just like i should stay in bed.
Don’t we all?
I want to just sleep, another 5 or more…
I guess I have to get up.
Get ready for the day and daily stimulant
My job is to make people understand things they have to use every single day of their lives.
I understand they have their strengths and so do I.
When you add that together you make a system that works.
But does it really work?
I am in a constant state of panic and feeling I am forgetting something.
Because I am?
Is that being human?
Is that a bad situation?
Is that both?
I DONT KNOW!
Best part is I know nothing really.
So this is the start. The start of my blog I guess? Not sure what I will post if anything but I’m going to try to say my thoughts here I guess.